Who is this Murphy guy anyway? Whats with his "law". Whoever he is I'm guessing he NEVER had any kind of luck cept bad.. poor guy! His law seems to fit today with the soaring temps and dead batteries on the suv and the motor at work i cant win. I mean really who gets two dead batteries in less than 24 hours? ME! Anywho, I'm gonna be soo busy for the next week just the thought of it makes my head spin. I am really bad about making a list of things that need to be done but if it keeps going at this rate.. the same rate that kids drink the milk at home I'm gonna lose my mind. I better make a list.
Quick story that is going to get lost in the memory banks with everything else that is going on.
June 19 10pm and a restless infant/toddler keeps kicking and squirming around in the bed. How exactly we ended up being co sleepers is beyond me. I never let my other boys sleep with me but peanut, oh sweet peanut i guess being my last baby and knowing he is the last idk i guess i caved. Maybe not, maybe it really did just happen. Having to get up all hours of the night with a infant not my cup of tea now that I'm in my 30's and when the others where little i was a sahm. This time I'm older, have less energy and work full time - maybe its just the other five/six kids have me worn down, either way its SOO much easier to just bring him to bed where the three of us count sheep together.
So I'm laying there being kicked and annoyed for the first time in his 16 months of life thinking THAT'S IT! I'm so done with this co sleeping thing... this baby NEEDS to sleep in his own bed!! That was it.. the moment.. that was the very moment my sleepy blued eyed monster who is every bit his fathers spitting image rested his head on my shoulder. He started patting my back and you could just feel the love. Crazy kid! Dh could hardly see in the dark room and asked "is he hugging you?" my response "yes and he is patting my back soo sweetly". Than with no warning - kind of like when the kids do chores without us having to ask them peanut sits up and out of the blue with sound effect and everything lays a kiss right on my forehead. AWWWWW say it with me now. How sweet is that? Dh hears this and asks "did he just kiss you" me "yup right on the forehead" tears almost welling up in my eyes (remember I'm tired and a bit off kilter at this point). So dh asks for a kiss too and peanut crawls over to daddy and shows him some love too. Is it possible he was reading my mind? Did he at his young and tender age somehow know mom was at her wits end? After showing dad some love he proceeds to climb back over and lay kisses all up my arm, neck and face! What a stud.. really! I was touched in every sense of the word.
You go on with your bad little self baby with a sixth sense like that he is someday gonna make some little lady a very happy woman! I AM WEAK and fell right into his little trap! He is STILL in our bed with us cept on that off night that we manage to have just a nickels worth of energy left in us to actually act like husband and wife. On those nights AFTER he falls asleep we tuck his spoiled has us wrapped around his fingers cute little self in his crib. On those nights when we need some husband and wife time.. if he happens to wake up all pissed off because he has been evicted from the bed we cave.. back in our bed he goes! lol I don't know for how much longer but for now.. he is our baby! Our last baby! And somehow, someway, someone is out there looking out for us and has blessed us with the understanding that it wont last forever so enjoy it for everything its worth!
Sleep, sex, money its all overated the love of your own little demon spawn THAT is what life is all about!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
A nice dinner with most of the kids... he smiled a lot and that makes me happy. His gift didn't come in the mail like it was supposed to Sat. so we had no gift to give him but i got the feeling he didn't mind a bit. Part of me knows he was reeling in the fact that everybody was getting along lol. I know part of that (not minding not having a gift) is because he knows if i ordered it online and he knows i did this time.. i spent MUCH more time into what i was getting. He knows it will be a nice gift and not something we picked up at Walmart at the last minute. HAHA
I think he feels he could do more and be a even better father too. Of course he would not admit such a thing but he knows. In his heart he knows he should lose weight and he is probably feeling it too. His hair is grey now.. well not completely yet but it getting there quickly. He watches t.v. too much and doesn't help around the house enough. When Taylor was spitting spit wads through his straw as soon as they brought us the drinks he knew... it was ALL his fault that our son would do such a thing at a nice restaurant!
He is a big kid and i LOVE him. He IS a GREAT FATHER!! He gets better and better at this being a husband and father thing everyday. He is a great man and his love for us all at the end of the day can fill a room. He is so quick to make up and easy to persuade and a strong man would die for any one of us without hesitation.
He is lucky i see his heart IS in the right place. He is lucky i think grey hair is sexy. He is lucky his daughters are still his little girls know matter how big they get. And i think he sees the potential in our children and wants them to be the best they can be at all times even if it means he has to drag it out of them.
I love him deeply, softly and with all my being. I think he even saw humor in the fact that peanut insisted he had to go poo-poo(pee-pee) twice during dinner. I saw him watching our son shove food into his already full of food mouth in awww. Really who knew a child that small could put that much food in his mouth. I would love to know what he was thinking when peanut wanted to eat off my plate instead of his own and i commented that i guess he was just used to sharing my dinner with me when we go out.
I think he feels he could do more and be a even better father too. Of course he would not admit such a thing but he knows. In his heart he knows he should lose weight and he is probably feeling it too. His hair is grey now.. well not completely yet but it getting there quickly. He watches t.v. too much and doesn't help around the house enough. When Taylor was spitting spit wads through his straw as soon as they brought us the drinks he knew... it was ALL his fault that our son would do such a thing at a nice restaurant!
He is a big kid and i LOVE him. He IS a GREAT FATHER!! He gets better and better at this being a husband and father thing everyday. He is a great man and his love for us all at the end of the day can fill a room. He is so quick to make up and easy to persuade and a strong man would die for any one of us without hesitation.
He is lucky i see his heart IS in the right place. He is lucky i think grey hair is sexy. He is lucky his daughters are still his little girls know matter how big they get. And i think he sees the potential in our children and wants them to be the best they can be at all times even if it means he has to drag it out of them.
I love him deeply, softly and with all my being. I think he even saw humor in the fact that peanut insisted he had to go poo-poo(pee-pee) twice during dinner. I saw him watching our son shove food into his already full of food mouth in awww. Really who knew a child that small could put that much food in his mouth. I would love to know what he was thinking when peanut wanted to eat off my plate instead of his own and i commented that i guess he was just used to sharing my dinner with me when we go out.
My first time
I don't know much about having a blog but to me it seems a perfect way to disperse all those random thoughts that cause traffic jams in my head. I think i was born to blog. I have so many wayward thought. Its like a sold out show of thoughts in my mind, its very crowed in there and some of them are looking for the nearest emergency exit. THIS is a perfect outlet for me and i wonder why it is I'm just now realizing that. I guess i should take that as a sign that I'm sometimes slow. I'm glad to see that there is a spell check because that is a downfall for me and not something i am proud of but it doesn't bother me enough to do anything about it either.
As of right now i don't believe i will be sharing this blog with anyone so it will be just like talking to myself. I already do that way too much however this is different and may cure me of the going crazy and talking to myself all the time virus i seem to have picked up. I have always been one that talks to much come to think of it so is my sweet dd, maybe i should set up a place for her to blog too! Could you imagine the blog of an 11 yr old? I cant even begin to imagine the kind of nut job people would have taken me for when i was 11. She is more well rounded than i ever was at her age. I'm proud of that. Im proud of the fact that she has not been through all the bs i went through when i was her age.
As of right now i don't believe i will be sharing this blog with anyone so it will be just like talking to myself. I already do that way too much however this is different and may cure me of the going crazy and talking to myself all the time virus i seem to have picked up. I have always been one that talks to much come to think of it so is my sweet dd, maybe i should set up a place for her to blog too! Could you imagine the blog of an 11 yr old? I cant even begin to imagine the kind of nut job people would have taken me for when i was 11. She is more well rounded than i ever was at her age. I'm proud of that. Im proud of the fact that she has not been through all the bs i went through when i was her age.
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